8/25/2016

I’m here because my love for him matters. It will always matter more than any fear or pain of mine.

I’ve stayed to keep careful watch over him while he sleeps.

What he means to me is often misunderstood. People only see all I have done for him. What they fail to see is all that he has done for me. He may never understand it either. I’ve spent years living a life I hated but couldn’t escape. I was drowning and no one ever came. All it took was seeing his small beautiful face. It gave me enough strength to keep swimming. My beautiful angel.

8/25/2016

My parents believed I grew up being scared of the dark

I’ve seen too much darkness to ever be fearful of the night

The monsters I fear don’t come from under beds or closets

6/9/2016

It’s like trying to change the color of my eyes.

1/10/2016

I want to wash away the filth that covers my skin and invades my mind.

1/10/2016

All emotions,

Even those that are suppressed and unexpressed

Have physical effects

Unexpressed emotions tend to stay in the body,

Like small ticking time bombs- they’re illness in incubation

10/1/2015

I’ve spent a lifetime

Searching for affection

In shallow spaces

I gave people bits of me

Things they didn’t deserve

And I let myself be hurt,

Because I thought

That’s what I deserved