1/4/2024

Why can’t I sleep?

Sleep is suppose to be an automatic thing

Yet, I struggle finding the switch to something that doesn’t even come with a switch

Tonight, the lonliness is amplified

It’s louder than the buzzing of the fridge and the cars below

It follows close behind

It moves in slow motion

Regardless, of how fast I run, it catches me

Surrounded by noise and people-yet so empty

There is this hole in me

That I know I’m never going to be able to fill

There isn’t anyone in the world who can

And it’s not a task for anyone to begin with

Not a task I can even complete

My screams echo back

Reminding me, there never was, is, nor will be

Solid ground here.