1/7/2024

Jan 7

Written By Ambar G

(EMDR Session)

“Let it go"

She says it over and over

I feel the tension of resistance

I’m holding my breath

I want to let it go

I’m telling myself to let it go, but I can’t…

There’s a part of me denying me access

Withholding permission

“I’m tired”, I tell her.

The fear moved down my spine

I notice the headache and pressure behind my left eye

The heat of violence builds between my legs…

A cramp attacks my left foot

The physical pain echoes pieces of a memory

I can’t

She helps me back as I rock and tap

I swear I’m trying, so hard

I’m doing my best

Please, please make it stop

Please