1/9/2025

(Dream)

People keep looking at me

I'm standing alone now at this party

Seems there are only men really around

I make myself busy and start cleaning

I find myself in the laundry room

I hear noise coming down the hallway and i peek

There is a guy jumping as he pulls his pants up

As he slips his shoes on

He sees me

And puts his arm around me as he walks me away from the room

Another comes up and asks for a hug as he comes in for an embrace

I'm uncomfortable

I know this feeling but I don't know why

I watch as he walks out of the room

He's clothed

But when we make eye contact a stone develops in my stomach

Like he's a doctor coming out of the room of a loved one

Preparing to deliver some bad news

The more this is look tells me, "don't come"

The more i want to

My legs pull me towards him

Everyone's watching

I'm nauseated by him now

Angry

Disappointed

My hands begin to shake

My throat closes

I look in the room

The image is gone from memory already

But the feeling isnt...

I drop to the floor

He tries to catch me

But I don't want him touching me

The screaming begins

I'm not screaming at anyone at first

But the more he tries to hold me the angrier I get

"What did you do!?"

"Did you do that?"

"Why would you do that to her!?"

Death breaks through the floor

I beg to be consumed

But it only comes to wrap itself around me

To tighten it's grip

And leave another mark

"I WANT TO DIE"

I wake up...