5/28/2023 Her Return

(EMDR Session)

I enter the bathroom to find Her.

My eyes can’t find Her face.

The tightness in my chest is hot.

My body is numb with fear.

We know she’s coming.

My throat and my jaw are tight.

So tight I feel a cramp coming.

I bend down and search for Her hands.

I extend mine and She places hers right on top.

It’s so small…

Soft, meaty, and brown.

“What do you need to say?” I ask.

She screams, “I didn’t do anything!”

“It’s not fair!”

“Why is she so mean!?”

Her words loosen the lace on the corset around my throat.

Her small hand is warm and it’s shaking.

What a brave little girl…

“It’s over” I tell Her.

“We survived”.

She runs into me, thoroughly embracing me.

Her body…feels so small.

I’ve come back to tell Her we are strong.

I feel safe and I know She does too.

I am safe for Her.

My hands are bigger and I’m much stronger.

I’m capable of protecting Her.

I stand up.

She grabs my hand.

“It’s time to go”.

We walk out of that restroom together.

I lift Her tiny body and sit Her on my lap.

Her hand resting on my hand.

We watch the movie play again.

This time I whisper in Her ear….

“This is the hard part but you have to keep watching because she’s not done.”